The Inner Voice Demands to be Heard

I could still remember the pressure that was on me a year ago when I just graduated and seeking for a job. It took me three weeks to finally land on my first real job. Not once have I thought that things are going to be easy in the real world. I went out and did what I have to- and that's to earn my own money to support my being materialistic. I spent most of my days happily embracing mediocrity. Thinking that all the discontentment shall pass and maybe I was just going through a phase. At times, I would find myself unhappy and unable to fulfill my function because I'm feeling too exhausted and detached. My mind drifts someplace else. I think it often goes to this perfect little world where insecurity, competition, and perfection is non-existent. 

I am obviously unhappy. It is very hard to conform. 

I tried to shut my inner voice out. But I realized that it demands to be heard and there's nothing I can do to stop it from getting into me. Inner voices never lie. It speaks what your heart truly wants. You'll probably be surprised that it knows you better than yourself. That is why we must listen and never ignore it. Follow it whenever you are ready. Be courageous enough to let change come in. 

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Two Birds

I've been listening to too many Regina Spektor song recently that I decided to name this article after one of her song that I can relate to the most. 

The feeling of having someone whom you can share your dreams with is probably the safest and most wonderful feeling I had. My belief for this one person was too much and probably became to overwhelming for him also. I had so many dreams and most of those required him in the picture. That, probably, scared the bird away. 

I could not understand it at the beginning. I got very confused and disappointed because things are never going to happen as planned. The bird told me that we want the same thing but apparently, it got tired pretending so I was left all alone. It was so hard to put the pieces back. My dreams were shattered. We both wanted to fly but apparently, on opposite directions. 

Time passed and wounds healed. I can only thank the bird for flying away. I thought it was the worst thing a person did to me but now I am thinking otherwise. It flew away because flying together is not going to bring us the happiness we thought we can get from each other. It did flew away to set us both free from things we perceived to be our binding similarities. 

It was the bird who kept me from flying and it was I who kept him from joining his flock. Now that we have both flown, you and I can truly be free and happy because putting something caged in a fantasy will just make you lonely in the end. After all, birds are all created fly.