I could still remember the pressure that was on me a year ago when I just graduated and seeking for a job. It took me three weeks to finally land on my first real job. Not once have I thought that things are going to be easy in the real world. I went out and did what I have to- and that's to earn my own money to support my being materialistic. I spent most of my days happily embracing mediocrity. Thinking that all the discontentment shall pass and maybe I was just going through a phase. At times, I would find myself unhappy and unable to fulfill my function because I'm feeling too exhausted and detached. My mind drifts someplace else. I think it often goes to this perfect little world where insecurity, competition, and perfection is non-existent.
I am obviously unhappy. It is very hard to conform.
I tried to shut my inner voice out. But I realized that it demands to be heard and there's nothing I can do to stop it from getting into me. Inner voices never lie. It speaks what your heart truly wants. You'll probably be surprised that it knows you better than yourself. That is why we must listen and never ignore it. Follow it whenever you are ready. Be courageous enough to let change come in.
